Here are the clues I’m not on my game. I don’t sleep well. I am back to the waking every hour or so.  When I work late and close the building, I am going to bed about 1 AM. I wake at 3, then 4, then 5:30, 6:30, AM or so, and I keep trying to get some solid REM sleep before getting out of bed. It isn’t … [Read more...] about It’s all piling up, I’ve got to get a grip
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What’s the point of my life?
I thought I would be “cured†by now. Seven months after my hospitalization for Major Depressive Disorder, it feels like I should be on top of my game. I have medication helping me, a therapist, a psychiatrist and peer support. In September, I flew to Chicago and spent the weekend learning SMART Recovery at their 25th Annual Conference. I … [Read more...] about What’s the point of my life?
Is it possible to be “recovered” rather than forever in “recovery?”
This is the question I am grappling with right now. This idea was presented in the training I am doing with SMART Recovery. Yes, I want to be a meeting facilitator someday, but right now I am still working on me. Seeing this concept in black and white, has given me a renewed sense of hope about my future. The Transtheoretical Model (also called the Stages of Change … [Read more...] about Is it possible to be “recovered” rather than forever in “recovery?”
What is my motivation?
If I were an actor in a play, I would be asking the director that question. Seriously, I am not sure why I am doing the things I am doing. That being said, some things are clear. I travel to my day job because they have fantastic health benefits. This is worth the time and trouble of the long commute. I eat, and bath, do my laundry and make a fire in the woodstove to … [Read more...] about What is my motivation?
I can’t believe I’m getting out of bed when the alarm clock rings
Ok, so I’m not jumping out of bed yet. But after the past six months of often resisting getting out from under the covers, this is real progress. I mean, “alert the media” kind of stuff. The crazy (can I use that word?) part about this is I did not know for a while that I had plateaued. It’s a whole lot easier to see that from the outside looking in. You’ll recall … [Read more...] about I can’t believe I’m getting out of bed when the alarm clock rings
