What is it about making a decision? I have done my homework. I have filled out the worksheets. I have spoken to my supporters, my therapist and my family. And I am still not sure what I should do. And I haven’t even been offered the job yet. Just because the interview went well, doesn’t mean I will be offered the position. Yet here I am … [Read more...] about I think I should. I think I shouldn’t.
What depression has cost me
What do my days look like?
After 52 blog posts, I’m having a “moment.†Until this morning, I have been overflowing with things to write about. When I pull out the laptop and sit down in a chair on the front porch, the words have just poured out of me. Well today, they are colliding. I can’t make sense of any of them. I … [Read more...] about What do my days look like?
Why can’t I let my guard down?
Getting in touch with my emotions is part of the healing process. While I am expressing more of them, I am still playing my cards, in certain situations, close to the vest. I don't let people see behind the mask. Let me give you an example. In the group meetings I am attending, I am completely transparent. I have held absolutely nothing back. It feels good to share … [Read more...] about Why can’t I let my guard down?
I stopped playing music when I’m driving
Silence was my only friend while driving. It wasn’t always like that. I remember buying a power booster for a Dodge Ram Charger I owned. I mounted two speakers in frames on either side of the back seat. I had an 8-track and a stereo cassette player mounted under the dash. I loved to roll the windows down and sing as I drove. So how have I ended up driving … [Read more...] about I stopped playing music when I’m driving
Am I ready to radically accept depression?
Radical acceptance means looking at yourself and the situation and seeing it as it really is. My goal with acknowledging depression is to not let it boss me around anymore. I am working on learning coping skills and avoiding unhelpful thinking styles. In the past few weeks, I have had small challenges that depression has thrown my way. Depression is testing me to see if I am … [Read more...] about Am I ready to radically accept depression?
