It’s seems such an easy thing, for everyone has an idea of what their own joy looks like. So why is it I cannot feel the emotion? Instead, I play defense and do anything I can to avoid joy. Joy is a risk. And suddenly I cannot figure out a way to take a risk. I’ve got depression on the run, or at least sitting in the back row. Why chance depression’s return by taking a … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Get Joy into My Head?
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WHY DO PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION FEEL LIKE A BURDEN?
Or worse for me, why do I feel like such a burden? And is my depression really feeding into those feelings? I recently read an article about this feeling of being a burden. Here are a few paragraphs: Many people that go through an episode of depression feel like a burden to others. Often individuals who live with depression struggle with feelings of guilt. It seems to be … [Read more...] about WHY DO PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION FEEL LIKE A BURDEN?
How Did Covid-19 Finally Catch Me?
Photo by Martin Sanchez on Unsplash It had always seemed just a matter of time. Even with all the precautions, vaccines, boosters, masks, deep cleaning, and social distancing, the odds were still against me. Add to that my occupation, which puts me in proximity to over 2,700 people each day. If you add employees, the number is closer to 3,000 contacts in a 9-hour … [Read more...] about How Did Covid-19 Finally Catch Me?
I Discovered My Life with Depression is Not a Lie
Image by Clker-Free-Vector-Images from Pixabay It’s funny the stories we tell ourselves. “Fake it until you make it” has always been my motto. And I have always felt that there is more for me to do before I can say I have made it. As the head psychiatrist on 5 East asked me, “when is enough, enough?” Getting one more certification, one more set of initials after my name, … [Read more...] about I Discovered My Life with Depression is Not a Lie
Am I Afraid of Talk Therapy to Beat My Depression?
Photo by Finn on Unsplash I mean it makes sense that it would help. Yet I have made excuses to stop going even after I had fought to get one therapist into my insurance network. I was paying out of pocket and had already called my health insurance provider once about getting him to be in-network. I finally got the nerve to call again after I had spent $115 for each of … [Read more...] about Am I Afraid of Talk Therapy to Beat My Depression?