Why do I feel "I am NOT enough?" All I need is one more certification and then I can really be effective in my side business. Once I achieve my goal of going to the gym 5 times a week, then life will be fine. When I have X number of dollars a month coming in, then everything will be great. All I need is a title, then I am somebody. Sitting on the front porch, drinking … [Read more...] about Where is the Proof That “I Am Not Enough?”
concealed depression
Three things I do to not be S.A.D. when I fall back
The days are getting shorter, that is clear. The shortest day of the year will be here in less than two months. Darkness comes in the mid-Atlantic states by 6 PM now, and the days are still getting shorter. In early summer, it wasn’t getting dark until almost 9 PM. What a difference. Seasonal Affective Disorder appears as the days get shorter and can … [Read more...] about Three things I do to not be S.A.D. when I fall back
Afraid or not, life still marches forward
We are either moving forward or we are dead. There is no middle ground. Even when we feel nothing is happening, that what we are doing doesn’t matter, life is going on. My personal thoughts about my self-worth and my value, my contributions to society and the greater good, are done against this backdrop. Whether I decide I am valuable just as I am, … [Read more...] about Afraid or not, life still marches forward
I’m spinning a lot of plates today
Who doesn’t get caught up in things occasionally? I am not bemoaning being busy. I chose that over retirement. Well, I chose busy over feeling anxious. Busy over wallowing in the depths of depression, busy instead of not being here at all. When I think of it that way, I have no room to bitch about anything. Choosing to be alive means plates must be … [Read more...] about I’m spinning a lot of plates today
Coach Depression sent in the play, why can’t I execute it?
While I have never been an NFL Quarterback, I am a smart, intelligent person who has accomplished many things in my lifetime. Yet I am also the person who has major depressive disorder and spent 43+ years doing everything in my power NOT to face it, NOT to acknowledge that I had it, NOT to deal with it. My hospital stay has changed all of that. Now my mantra is: … [Read more...] about Coach Depression sent in the play, why can’t I execute it?
