Today I am scattered. There is so much on my mind, I am having trouble slowing things down. Getting to the most important tasks is what I need to focus on. I have a list in my head, which would be easier to manage if I had written it down. But I can’t seem to stop long enough to write out the list. My drive to get these things off my plate, to … [Read more...] about Getting help keeping it in the lane
concealed depression
Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
Boy do I feel silly. Two days ago, I woke up feeling cloudy. My head was not right. I was feeling unfocused and I just couldn’t get going. So, my mind jumps immediately to this must be the work of depression. Something must be going on. I must be relapsing. I am headed down the rabbit hole into the dark, dank depths of depression, into the abyss … [Read more...] about Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
What do you mean I’m blaming others?
How could he even say that? That I am blaming my depression for my actions. That I am making excuses for my actions and not being responsible. That’s not even close to what I am thinking. I am a mess today. My therapy session has opened all kinds of feelings, emotions, and who the hell knows what else. And worse, I see the next session as an … [Read more...] about What do you mean I’m blaming others?
I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?
It’s not all or nothing. Feeling a little dull this morning doesn’t mean the end of the world s coming. In fact, just getting up has helped with the cloudiness. And then pouring a mug of black coffee and heading out to the front porch has helped, too. Maybe my cloudiness is related to the fog laying on the ground this morning. … [Read more...] about I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?
Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?
I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3 or 4 days after getting out of the hospital. I wish I could sleep. But … [Read more...] about Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?
