I'm off to work. I will write later. I feel that if I slow down or stay in one place too long, depression will find me. So I keep moving. And I know it is harder to hit a moving target. This is another incentive to stay on my toes. The concept applies to my eating habits, too. I eat very, very fast. … [Read more...] about This is true for me
concealed depression
I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
Well, maybe I just did not tell him everything. That sounds a lot better. Yet, in the end, I wasn’t honest about how I was doing. My years of practice hiding and concealing my depression kicked in when I went in to see him last week. It had been three months since I first saw him, and I made a lot of progress. With all the work I have done to … [Read more...] about I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
Two strikes against me and the day is just getting started
On my calendar, the appointment was for 8:30 AM today. My appointments have been every two weeks since the summer. I even scribbled it on the card from the last appointment the new date before leaving his office two weeks ago. So why is someone else in with my therapist, and I am waiting another couple of weeks to see him? I didn’t do anything … [Read more...] about Two strikes against me and the day is just getting started
I’m afraid I don’t know what I’m afraid of
One thing is for sure, I am afraid of dying. Even as I was driving to the emergency room this spring, my deepest fear was that I was more terrified of death than I was seeking professional help. And believe me, I was scared shitless about going to the hospital. After all, I was the guy who always won. The guy who, at the last minute, figured a way out of the situation … [Read more...] about I’m afraid I don’t know what I’m afraid of
Can I Tell You the Truth?
Today, I don’t feel like writing. However, I feel I need to write. This is how I am working out my relationship with depression. Through these blog posts, I am creating a balanced life for myself. So, on a day where I do not feel like writing, I also feel guilt. Why shouldn’t I just suck it up and write? After all, that is what … [Read more...] about Can I Tell You the Truth?
