I miss the energy. The interaction. And I miss the challenges that come with going to a day job. What in the world was I thinking? Sit in my home office in front of a computer monitor and write for others? Not have daily interaction with groups of people. I face the same tedious routine day after day after day. Believe it or not, I am not writing about my blogging. … [Read more...] about Will Everyday Be the Same?
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I’m afraid to tell you this
People should be able to have Depression without adding the fear of being labeled. Depression creates unhelpful thinking patterns that feed into our culture’s stigma about mental health issues. Feeling the need to be guarded about our condition only gives depression a stronger grip. I know, I have spent most of my life denying I have depression and hiding it from even … [Read more...] about I’m afraid to tell you this
How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
For the past two hours, I have been me. Not super happy or sad, just me. How is this possible? My depression had been keeping me from myself. The Prozac must have reached a saturation point in my system. Or the hand of fate moved it to the side. Or my decision this morning to block out chunks of time for my depression, and chunks of time to work, is working. “Who the hell … [Read more...] about How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
Waking Up Depressed
This morning, I am having trouble getting the day started. I had trouble even making up my mind to get out of bed. It was already after 7 AM, and I am usually up and going by then. To help me decide whether to stay in bed or get up, I found myself recounting a rhyme I learned as a child. I-lit-a-match-and-it-went-out. The problem with this was, I couldn’t decide if “out” … [Read more...] about Waking Up Depressed
Why am I a Whirling Dervish?
Today I have all of these random thoughts swirling around in my head. Will writing them down calm them? Let's try. I’ve got to have this figured out RIGHT NOW. It’s not ok for me to not already have a plan in place. This is not normal for me and is very uncomfortable. It is causing me to be anxious. That anxiousness is clouding my judgment and is keeping me … [Read more...] about Why am I a Whirling Dervish?