Photo by Hasnain Babar on Unsplash My depression can only push me so far or it will lose its host. After all, if I die, then depression dies too. So it is in depression’s best interest to keep me alive and kicking. Even when it has me in the abyss, its focus is on keeping me up against that wall. If I cannot feel anything or envision any way forward, depression is … [Read more...] about My Depression is Waiting for Me to Say, “I Give Up”
Unhelpful thinking styles have generated a huge number of books from authors who want to tell you what to do. My personal experience is that some of these have changed my way of acting on unhelpful thinking styles. Each new book I uncover gives me another piece of the puzzle that gets me one step closer to leading a balanced life with depression. Books that I have read … [Read more...] about Relieve The Stress of Unhelpful Thinking Styles Using These Books
My depression is a classic textbook hopelessness. Not the passing, “oh, I will never pass this exam,” or the “why didn’t I get the job?” While I have had many similar thoughts over my lifetime, these would only last a few days. I would get over it and move on. This feeling of hopelessness, in moderation, is a normal part of life. We all have disappointments and situations we … [Read more...] about What Does Your Depression Look Like? Mine Has Three Feelings.
There are so many more things I could be doing right now. How can I decide? That is what I am working on currently. It should make me happy, glad, excited to be wanted by others. To have people I admire say “you could be a big help and contributor to the success of our non-profit, our company, our group." This is very flattering. But at the same time, I am still … [Read more...] about What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3 or 4 days after getting out of the hospital. I wish I could sleep. But what I did know, … [Read more...] about Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?