My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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People Thought I Was Dead

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That is a very sobering thought. Six weeks after getting out of the hospital, I finally contacted my mentor. He had been checking the obituaries. And while I had stayed in touch with another person for over two years, I fell off the grid last summer and stopped responding to her emails. I had the nerve, finally, to reach out today. Here’s what she wrote: I am … [Read more...] about People Thought I Was Dead

I Thought the Next Pandemic Would Include Zombies

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And yet here we are facing a deadly variation of the flu. My level of anxiety has increased markedly as the virus has spread. This anxiety has manifested itself as anger, at times, and has been a source of friction within my support group. I wonder why this time it's different, having survived swine flu, H1 N1, and yearly cold and flu seasons. Having a day job in the … [Read more...] about I Thought the Next Pandemic Would Include Zombies

7 Reasons I’m Tired of Being Tired

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Five months of mostly cloudy. My mind is not clear and crisp on most days. And for the first hour or two after I finally get up, my mind is the foggiest.  I am yawning, even though I have been in bed for over 8 hours. If that translated into 8 hours of sleep, my mornings might be different. After I first fall asleep, I begin a cycle of waking up at 1 AM, 3 … [Read more...] about 7 Reasons I’m Tired of Being Tired