Why am I stuck in this loop of sameness? As I begin writing, I realize this is not the first time I have written about this. My mind has been stuck in a painful, unproductive loop before. And how to jump-start a new, more productive loop is where I am now. READ: Will everyday be the same? Last night, after getting home from work, I had a small meal. By 11 PM, I … [Read more...] about Same Stuff, Just A Different Day
High-functioning depression
I Am Tired Of Being Tired – Part II
Today has been much like most recent days. Certain topics are not on my radar. I am clunking around in a daze, hoping that the answer to why I am feeling blah will pull me aside and reveal itself to me. Why is life so empty? Why can’t I get it together? Where is the piece I am missing and how do I get it? I hit every single stoplight on my way to my doctor’s appointment … [Read more...] about I Am Tired Of Being Tired – Part II
Does Wearing a Mask Mean I am Afraid?
It’s not that I don’t think COVID 19 is real. Unlike COVID 19, I spent years concealing my disease, working around it as a person with high-functioning depression. My relationship with depression has been an evolutionary process. As I learn more about how it works, I can see where I have bought into depression madness and where I have stood firm. READ MORE: I think I … [Read more...] about Does Wearing a Mask Mean I am Afraid?
I was Nervous About Switching Therapists
It turns out, my insurance is not covering my former therapy visits. $874 is quite a chunk to swallow when you think that, at worst, you are responsible for a $15 co-pay. I know, it is my responsibility to follow up on my insurance. I sign the papers that say I will be the responsible party if the insurance does not pay. Well, the insurance did not pay. Now, however, I … [Read more...] about I was Nervous About Switching Therapists
Can I consistently feel better?
I just want to be better than I am now. Not great, magnificent, or even "damn fine", just better. This whole depression thing is tiring me out. Every day, I am reminded of what I have lost. The things that could have been popping up at the oddest of times, ruining the beginnings of being better. Then I’m right back to blah, blah, blah. Not overly bad, not overly … [Read more...] about Can I consistently feel better?