I have been afraid to write about this subject. While people who have suicidal ideation will get it, the vast majority of people do not understand this or are afraid to talk about it. For 43+ years, I was afraid of getting anywhere near the subject. It turns out, I have a major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. My suicidal thoughts are not an everyday … [Read more...] about “Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?
Major Depressive Disorder
This Year, A Little Rain Is OK
I do not care if it rains all week, I am happy to be alive. And guess what, my wish is coming true. The forecast is for seven days of showers. The best news is that my garden will get daily watering as the plants establish themselves. And then the days going into Memorial Day will be dry, calm and sunny. We are planning to have no more than 10 local family members gather … [Read more...] about This Year, A Little Rain Is OK
Which New Normal? MDD or Covid19?
I am still learning to live with major depressive disorder. Now I am also learning to live surrounded by the coronavirus. I am troubled more than a little by the double whammy. Yet, my plight, if it is a plight, seems increasingly minor, compared to others. Obviously, dying is not the desired outcome for anyone. Short of that, being hooked to a ventilator is a close … [Read more...] about Which New Normal? MDD or Covid19?
“Focus on the Possibilities for Success, Not on the Potential for Failure.”
Napoleon Hill said that. A year has almost passed since I walked into the emergency room and was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I was so numb, that it was months before what that meant sunk in. Even now, while the diagnosis makes sense, I am still learning coping skills and tools to live a balanced life with depression. Recently, I have begun to look at where … [Read more...] about “Focus on the Possibilities for Success, Not on the Potential for Failure.”
Five Names For My Depression
Concealed depression has been my life. I have racked up 43+ years of hiding my depression, even from myself. This has led me to jump through hoops and do all kinds of crazy shenanigans to keep it hidden. From ignoring it to justifying it by using an unhelpful thinking style, I have lived with depression for my entire adult life. It turns out, my way of dealing with … [Read more...] about Five Names For My Depression