Photo by Jason Leung on UnsplashIs it something I can share, or is it more esoteric?Am I going to write about it or am I going to spend a page or more, avoiding talking about it. Sometimes I just need to warm up my brain before I can open up about what I actually decided to write about. Ok, it’s most of the time. I almost always seem to ramble on about something, pulling out … [Read more...] about When Do I Know What I Want?
mental health matters
My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
Roxana Zerni UNSPLASHMy depression is glad that I am sad and not happier.It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward.And it doesn’t … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
Photo by Marten Bjork on UnsplashChoosing not to live with depression is, for me, choosing suicide.Because of my family history, I see that I either learn to face depression and live with it, or check out. And my one instance of contemplating checking out occurred almost 50 years ago. Since then, I have understood that I am more afraid of death than I am of living with … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
There’s a Lot Going On, So Is Being OK, OK?
Unsplash I am amazed at the changes the last month has brought.A month ago, I had just returned from trekking in the Grand Canyon. Things were better than OK, the family was great, and I had just booked a flight up north for Thanksgiving. Work was good, and I was getting to use the wood stove some mornings to take the chill out of the living room.And then stuff hit the … [Read more...] about There’s a Lot Going On, So Is Being OK, OK?
