My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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Thank You, Prozac, It’s Been Three Weeks Since I’ve Had Those Thoughts.

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12 weeks ago, I would not have thought this was possible. In the first few days after getting out of the hospital, depression still had me not seeing much of anything. It was a struggle to get out of bed, to eat, to get dressed. There was a glimmer of hope that I was on a better path, but when I say glimmer, that’s being very generous. My days were filled with forcing myself to … [Read more...] about Thank You, Prozac, It’s Been Three Weeks Since I’ve Had Those Thoughts.

I finally read the five-page medication guide for Prozac. Now my head hurts.

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What is the most important information I should know about Prozac? With every refill of my prescription, I receive five pages of tightly spaced information about the drug. The document starts off harmless enough with directions: Take one capsule by mouth one time daily. This is what is I read on the bottle every morning when I take it. Next is the generic name. Fluoxetine (floo … [Read more...] about I finally read the five-page medication guide for Prozac. Now my head hurts.

Why just rewriting my negative scripts didn’t help

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Searching online for resources about mental health, I came across a group in the UK. They offer many free downloads of handouts and offer workshops if you live near them. I downloaded their “7 key points to achieve a resilient mindset.†Click the link and you can get a copy. This got me thinking about how I am scripting my thoughts about my … [Read more...] about Why just rewriting my negative scripts didn’t help

“Does it even matter?” Hey, that’s the depression talking.

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I’m all over the board today. Thinking about, obsessing about, how I will spend my days has really set off a chain of thoughts in my mind. And some realizations. The Prozac must be working as intended. I have not had any suicidal thoughts in days. Not that I have ever acted upon them. Suicidal ideation is the clinical term they used when I was in the … [Read more...] about “Does it even matter?” Hey, that’s the depression talking.

Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing? 6 Year Update

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Originally published May 29, 2019 It hit me the other day—I don’t double-check my pills anymore. For so long, that little ritual was part of my mornings. Shake the bottle. Look at the label. Roll the pill around. Push it onto my tongue just to be sure. And now? I just take them. No second-guessing. No hesitation. It feels almost strange not to overthink it.. But at the … [Read more...] about Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing? 6 Year Update