The problem is not all or nothing. Although it feels like that when I am stuck, immobile and indecisive. Once the day gets going, I am better equipped to use the tools I have learned to meet and defeat problems as they come my way. Between SMART Recovery, WRAP training, Peer Support at On Our Own, meetings with my therapist and psychiatrist, I have learned so much about … [Read more...] about There are still doors my keys do not open
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Can I just be myself today?
Is that so hard? I am still having the waking up issue. It seems I have walked all around the edges of this. But I have not faced it or asked the right questions. I still wonder, is this related to my change in medication? Having the courage, conviction, self-advocacy determination to get the answer isn’t enough. Depression has got me doing the deer in … [Read more...] about Can I just be myself today?
I can’t believe I’m getting out of bed when the alarm clock rings
Ok, so I’m not jumping out of bed yet. But after the past six months of often resisting getting out from under the covers, this is real progress. I mean, “alert the media” kind of stuff. The crazy (can I use that word?) part about this is I did not know for a while that I had plateaued. It’s a whole lot easier to see that from the outside looking in. You’ll recall … [Read more...] about I can’t believe I’m getting out of bed when the alarm clock rings
I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
Well, maybe I just did not tell him everything. That sounds a lot better. Yet, in the end, I wasn’t honest about how I was doing. My years of practice hiding and concealing my depression kicked in when I went in to see him last week. It had been three months since I first saw him, and I made a lot of progress. With all the work I have done to understand depression, … [Read more...] about I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist