Well, it was going to be my New Year’s resolution if I got around to making new year’s resolutions. For the past 6 weeks or so, I have been wondering why I was feeling so rushed. This led to my decision that I wasn’t setting aside any self-care time. Every day had become full of life’s needs, and I found myself gravitating towards everyone else’s needs. My resolution then … [Read more...] about I Broke My New Year’s Resolution After Only 4 Days
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The New Year Brings New Possibilities
How will I think about the new year? Answering this will set the tone for 2022. Accepting things that happen to me is what my depression would love. Its new year’s resolution begins, “I will make sure Joel is circling the drain by the end of 2022. I will make sure Joel remembers that I am the best thing that has happened to him. I resolve to make sure Joel sees that I am his … [Read more...] about The New Year Brings New Possibilities
Even With My Depression, I Am Still Thankful
Lately, I am amazed at how much I must live for. There have been times in my life where this wasn’t true. And times where all I could do was summon enough courage to get through the day. And times where I contemplated what it would be like to no longer have to push that same rock up the same hill. I find myself this morning thankful for time. Each time I am up against … [Read more...] about Even With My Depression, I Am Still Thankful
Depression Has Left Me a “Deer in Headlights” Again
I want to decide, but I feel frozen instead. There are things I can do right now that would address getting out of bed in the morning. But somehow, all I can muster is my “being OK” act. My high-functioning depression kicks in when I must get out of bed. This morning is a perfect example. I had gone to bed just before 10 PM. Eight hours later would be 6 AM. At 6:30 AM, … [Read more...] about Depression Has Left Me a “Deer in Headlights” Again
My Batteries Were Recharged From The Family Weekend
I’m still in the afterglow of my weekend. It was such a fun time having the family together. The rental house my brother found was perfect for the eleven of us. And the amenities kept us all busy, comfortable, and fed. We had plenty of time to visit, catch up and decompress. And I got to reconnect with my grandson in person. This was the highlight of the trip for me. … [Read more...] about My Batteries Were Recharged From The Family Weekend