My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

SMART Recovery

New attitude, new focus, new desk location?

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Right now, I have moving my desk on my list with a lower priority than scheduling my colonoscopy. But the truth is, each time I move my desk, I get a renewed sense of purpose. The actions of cleaning, organizing, and then actually moving the desk gives me a "fresh start." And happily, I have learned many other ways to help with my attitude and fresh starts. One of the … [Read more...] about New attitude, new focus, new desk location?

Surviving Depression and Thriving as I Write My 200th Blog Post

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I’m still alive and able to make choices about my life! Approaching my 200th blog post, I went back and read some of my earlier posts. Boy, I was really a mess. In some ways I still am. Here’s part of what I wrote on my 100th blog post: That first morning, I was told by professionals in the medical community that there was … [Read more...] about Surviving Depression and Thriving as I Write My 200th Blog Post

Today I wish I were sad

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That would be a step up from where I am right now. The harder I work on my recovery, the further behind I feel. Now part of this may be the time of year. I know about S.A.D. and what happens when you do not get enough sunlight. This could certainly be a factor in how I feel. But why is it, particularly when I am taking the SMART Training classes and learning so many … [Read more...] about Today I wish I were sad

Sometimes You Must Put On “Big Boy” Pants

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There are other, more crude ways of expressing this. The point is there are times when you need to do the right thing. And doing the right thing may be uncomfortable, or even feel impossible. But it is still what needs to be done. Knowing that this is the thing to do doesn’t make doing it any easier. I am dealing with two very intense situations … [Read more...] about Sometimes You Must Put On “Big Boy” Pants