Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash Joy is one emotion that has been missing over the past 4 or 5 years. Not days, or weeks, but years. That’s a long time. 365 days times 4 years equals 1,465 days. Five years is that plus 365. And for much of that time, I did not even know I was not experiencing joy. I was happy if I experienced any emotion. And yes, that included the … [Read more...] about Joy Has Been Elusive for Years, But I May Have Found It Again
Mental Health
Side Effects Be Damned, Now I’m Taking 30 mg of Remeron
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on Unsplash This new development is not exactly what I had envisioned when I got up this morning. Well, I guess this is not what my Peer Advocate had envisioned. She had expected my psychiatrist to switch me to Abilify, or one of the two other similar medications. So instead of taking 30 mg of Remeron, I would replace that with a dose of … [Read more...] about Side Effects Be Damned, Now I’m Taking 30 mg of Remeron
I See My Psychiatrist Tomorrow to Discuss the 15mg of Mirtazapine She Added
Photo by Christina Victoria Craft on Unsplash 30 days ago, she added 15 mg. of mirtazapine to the 450 mg of Wellbutrin XL that I take each morning. The addition of this drug is prescribed to help me go from ok, to a balanced life where I might feel joy again. I have written much recently about how I have gotten to the ok stage but cannot seem to move into what I remember … [Read more...] about I See My Psychiatrist Tomorrow to Discuss the 15mg of Mirtazapine She Added
Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Mirtazapine, generic for Remeron, was added to my anti-depressant regime recently. A Google search reveals: Mirtazapine is an antidepressant used to treat major depressive disorders in adults. It is not known if mirtazapine is safe and effective for use to treat MDD in children1. It is often used in cases of depression complicated by anxiety or insomnia2. It … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Why I Say That I Am No Longer Evergreen
Photo by Kayla Warner on Unsplash Another post about my lifelong struggle to face major depressive disorder (concealed depression) They say you always remember your first time. Well with my `depression, that is not true. For me, major moments stand out, including what I came to call “my lost year.” But most of my depression, up until 4 years ago, is one big blur. In … [Read more...] about Why I Say That I Am No Longer Evergreen
