Thirty-three months ago, I returned home after spending four days in 5 East. I was a mess, pure and simple. My diagnosis was Major Depressive Disorder, with suicidal ideation. Heck, just the name sounded like a gigantic problem. My depression left me with no ambition except to make it to the end of the day. My goal then was to make it until dark. Then I could reward myself … [Read more...] about Depression Is Not My Boss (Day 1 revisited)
On Our Own, C'Ville
My Depression Operates in The Smallest Spaces
Before I began learning about how depression works, all I knew were my spectacular crashes. As I thought back on my life, I could clearly see four major episodes that my depression exacerbated. These were times when I was circling the drain, was up against the wall, and could not see any way forward. To an outsider, I can only imagine how that must have looked. But for … [Read more...] about My Depression Operates in The Smallest Spaces
What Should I Do with All I Have Learned About Depression?
I must tell you I am very unsettled about this. On the one hand, I have collected and am using a wealth of knowledge about depression. My personal experience includes high-functioning depression, concealed depression, and Major Depressive Disorder. Recently, it was pointed out by my psychiatrist that Anxiety has been present. My life with depression spans 50 years., and … [Read more...] about What Should I Do with All I Have Learned About Depression?
10 Things I Am Thankful For
I am alive, active, and Covid-freeMy support system has grown over the past 27 monthsThe medication I am taking works without side-effectsI can pay my bills and order out when I wantThere is not a day that I do not learn something newMy family is supportive, kind and availableWhen I am at my day job, there is a lot of time to teach and mentorIn the mornings, I can sit on my … [Read more...] about 10 Things I Am Thankful For
OK, I’m Ready To Get Started!
The first email I can find about the project was from the middle of March. (Please read to the end. Sometimes I need to warm up to the depression part) That was 5 months ago. Then, it seemed like only a matter of weeks and the garage construction would be underway. With three estimates in hand and conversations with all three contractors, we had made our choice. March … [Read more...] about OK, I’m Ready To Get Started!
