Thirty-three months ago, I returned home after spending four days in 5 East.
I was a mess, pure and simple. My diagnosis was Major Depressive Disorder, with suicidal ideation. Heck, just the name sounded like a gigantic problem. My depression left me with no ambition except to make it to the end of the day. My goal then was to make it until dark. Then I could reward myself by thinking of any excuse to go to bed early. Under the covers was my sanctuary, my safe place. Venturing out into the daylight required extensive amounts of energy. These forays into the day left me drained.
At this moment, I had only begun to explore all of the resources available to me.
Over time, these would become the tools that allowed me to lead a balanced life with depression. I would learn about SMART RECOVERY, ON OUR OWN, the Change Triangle, WRAP, a wellness recovery action plan, and much much more. I
Then I became a certified instructor for Smart Recovery in November 2019. I did this to learn more about my depression and I have not facilitated any sessions. I have built a community of individuals I trust and can speak to without holding back.
This blog has been an honest record of my personal journey back to life from the depths of depression
Here is the link to my first blog post-April 22, 2019: