Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
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I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Photo by Yu Wang on Unsplash I say that, but I cannot convince myself that I mean it. I could list 100’s of positive assertions, including: Heck, I have even made up one: “I have depression, depression does not have me.” But repeating these mantras day after day, situation after situation goes only so far. In the end, there must be movement, action of some sort. … [Read more...] about I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Is It My Depression Medicine or Am I Just Edgy Today?
Photo by freestocks on Unsplash I know for a fact that something is going on in my body today. So, I was up about 1:30 AM this morning, and everything was fine. I went to the bathroom and climbed back into bed, Then I was up again at 5:00 AM. This is not unusual. I haven’t had a full night’s sleep in years. And getting my medication adjusted to make things more normal … [Read more...] about Is It My Depression Medicine or Am I Just Edgy Today?
Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash I have asked myself “why can’t I laugh out loud anymore? The whole idea of laughing is not part of my daily routine. In fact, it is not a part of my routine at all these days. I can see that something is funny, but I am not able to laugh, to show an emotion about it. And this is true whether it is a joke being told, or a situation I am … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?
Even My Depression Tells Me I Should Be Paying Attention
Photo by Sara Kurfeß on Unsplash Who knew staying focused would be so difficult. It is Sunday morning, shortly after 8 AM. I just spent close to 45 minutes scrolling through the internet on my phone. Up before 8AM, I had planned to do some writing before everyone else got up for the day. That didn’t work out the way I thought it would. And I seem to get suckered … [Read more...] about Even My Depression Tells Me I Should Be Paying Attention