Roxana Zerni UNSPLASHMy depression is glad that I am sad and not happier.It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward.And it doesn’t … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
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What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
Photo by Marten Bjork on UnsplashChoosing not to live with depression is, for me, choosing suicide.Because of my family history, I see that I either learn to face depression and live with it, or check out. And my one instance of contemplating checking out occurred almost 50 years ago. Since then, I have understood that I am more afraid of death than I am of living with … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
There’s a Lot Going On, So Is Being OK, OK?
Unsplash I am amazed at the changes the last month has brought.A month ago, I had just returned from trekking in the Grand Canyon. Things were better than OK, the family was great, and I had just booked a flight up north for Thanksgiving. Work was good, and I was getting to use the wood stove some mornings to take the chill out of the living room.And then stuff hit the … [Read more...] about There’s a Lot Going On, So Is Being OK, OK?
I’m Writing A List Of Things That Are True About Me
Colin + Meg UnsplashI am going very slowly working with this idea.Creating a list of things that are true about me is not easy. While I am beginning to think of more substantial things, I am still using things like "I enjoy a cup of coffee in the morning" as a fallback.I suppose it narrows down who I am in some way, but it seems like a cheap item to list. My gut is telling me … [Read more...] about I’m Writing A List Of Things That Are True About Me
I’m Getting Ready To Tell Work That I Have Depression – Part II
[ I published this in July and it is now September. After a few months of additional procrastination, I am finally going to share my news. After all, I'm not getting any younger. And, I have had two therapy sessions with a new therapist. These are already reminding me of the strength I have within. Now it is a matter of using that strength to follow through. If my story can … [Read more...] about I’m Getting Ready To Tell Work That I Have Depression – Part II
