Photo by Dan Cook on Unsplash And I am not laughing about not laughing. I just read an article that listed 16 Things People Don't Realize You Are Doing Because You Are Emotionally Numb. And of those 16, 3 jumped out to me as things I am doing a lot. Well, I have been doing them a lot lately. And these issues appear to have their roots in my depression. Click below to … [Read more...] about I Don’t Laugh Out Loud Anymore Because of My Depression
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Photo by Christopher Carson on Unsplash The word suffering seems so all-inclusive. Here’s what popped up in a Google search: Suffering, or pain in a broad sense, may be an experience of unpleasantness and aversion associated with the perception of harm or threat of harm in an individual. Suffering is the basic element that makes up the negative valence of affective … [Read more...] about Do I Suffer from Depression? I’m Not Sure Suffer Is the Right Word
Photo by Joy Memon on Unsplash Depression and I go back almost 60 years, but I have only said “I have depression” for the past four. Before that, I was all about getting the episode over so I could get back to my “regular life.” It never occurred to me that living with depression was my regular life. I was so focused on never having depression that I refused to see my … [Read more...] about My Depression and I Are About to Celebrate Our 4th Anniversary
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash I tried to shift the problem to the new medication that my general practitioner has started me on. This seemed logical as the getting-out-of-bed problem began shortly after I began taking generic Flomax. The reason I am taking that would require an entire blog post of its own. But here I am, and I am trying to understand why I cannot get … [Read more...] about Why Am I Having Trouble Getting Out of Bed Again?
Photo by Alvaro Reyes on Unsplash If I think I want or need something, shouldn’t that be enough? Yet here I am negotiating with myself over what I want. Even after a lifetime of making my own choices, I am stuck between my ideas and depression. Now it is possible that my depression has allowed me a few “wins.” You know, just enough to keep me in the game. My … [Read more...] about Why Must My Depression Decide What I Really Want or Need?