My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

The cost of success

The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II

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The inevitable happened today. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. He was over 15 years old and had lived a charmed life for a cat. Although he never had offspring, he had a family that he loved and that loved him. He was a hunter, a birdwatcher, and he loved to show his dominance in the pack. His name was Pumpkin after his “pumpkin … [Read more...] about The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II

Depression Wants Me to Keep Secrets Again

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Since I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, I have learned just how secretive depression is. And I have learned many of the sneaky trick’s depression has used with me over the past 43+ years as it kept a hold over me. The craziest part about my relationship with depression is that it always makes me feel like I am in control. Worse, the ideas … [Read more...] about Depression Wants Me to Keep Secrets Again

Three Things I Learned While Circling the Drain

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Most of December and the first two weeks of January were draining as depression was trying it’s best to pull me under. Had I not been through this same process less than a year ago, I am sure the outcome would have been the same. But this time, I had tools and a Wellness Recovery Action Plan that I had written out. I had thought about what it would look like if I was … [Read more...] about Three Things I Learned While Circling the Drain