Canceled implies something was going to happen, but now it is not. For example, “school is canceled because of heavy snow.” This is clear. School was going to take place, but now it will not because of the snow. Small towns all over the country have canceled Memorial Day. No parade, no floats, and not a bit of rhubarb pie. Public swimming pools are not opening. There … [Read more...] about Memorial Day Festival is Canceled? How Is That Possible?
What depression has cost me
I Asked My Doctor 6 Questions About My MDD Symptoms
What he told me was life changing. Getting out of bed each morning has been drama. Most days, I launch an internal dialogue with myself, which ends in my feeling guilty about staying in bed. Then at some point, a sound triggers my “fight or flight” response, and I leap out of bed. This scenario of guilt and shame for not being able to get out of bed has been going on for … [Read more...] about I Asked My Doctor 6 Questions About My MDD Symptoms
Pandemic Closings Aside, My Depression Recovery is Still Open For Business
I am having trouble managing my thoughts and feelings with so many of my resources closed. I'm blaming my lack of motivation on not having face to face meetings. And my recovery feels stalled. In SMART Recovery, I have learned that at the heart of recovery lies their 4-Point Program. My journey has taken me from point one to point three. The four-points are: Building … [Read more...] about Pandemic Closings Aside, My Depression Recovery is Still Open For Business
What is Depression and Why Do I Have It?
Beginning my second year with Major Depressive Disorder, I am still not leading a balanced life. Now things are certainly much, much better than they were a year ago. I have hope and can see a way forward. Last year, I was up against the wall and saw NO way forward. It was all abyss. I was way past circling the drain. And yet I got up each day, and concealed my depression, … [Read more...] about What is Depression and Why Do I Have It?
Did I Miss My Anniversary?
No, I did not miss my wedding anniversary. I know that date and will be forever grateful for it. As we approach 40 years of marriage, there is so much to be thankful for. But that is not for a few more months. We have marked this occasion together every year since our first. But that is not what just passed. I’m pretty sure a year ago, I was still in or had just been … [Read more...] about Did I Miss My Anniversary?