My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

What depression has cost me

What Was I Worried About? My New Psychiatrist Understands Me

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Having written about this visit twice before it happened, I guess I was a little concerned about the outcome. But the discussion went very well. As you will see, we made some changes to my medication. But this was after almost an hour of conversation from a socially distant distance, with each of us wearing masks. I was able to share my list which I wrote into a blog post … [Read more...] about What Was I Worried About? My New Psychiatrist Understands Me

“Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?

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I have been afraid to write about this subject. While people who have suicidal ideation will get it, the vast majority of people do not understand this or are afraid to talk about it. For 43+ years, I was afraid of getting anywhere near the subject. It turns out, I have a major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. My suicidal thoughts are not an everyday … [Read more...] about “Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?

Will I be Ready for My New Psychiatrist?

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I promise to tell my new Doctor the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Going into my doctor’s office and putting on my concealed depression face results in me not getting the true help I need. Depression is once again getting me to be secretive. It reminds me that no one understands me as well as it does, and I should be wary of anyone (or … [Read more...] about Will I be Ready for My New Psychiatrist?