My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)

3 Ways Depression is Keeping My Continued Success Away

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Of course, it could be me and I’m blaming my ups and down on my depression. This can easily lead to the “which came first, the chicken or the egg?† Am I using depression as an excuse for getting to the edge of long-term success and then sabotaging my success? Or is it depression that creeps in and takes away the … [Read more...] about 3 Ways Depression is Keeping My Continued Success Away

Was It My Depression or Did I Really Do That?

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Looks like I am shoulding all over myself this morning. I find myself looking at past opportunities that I have squandered and not fully taken advantage of. Of course, I am focusing on what I remember as big, earthshattering occurrences, the likes of which I may never see again. So already I have hit three unhelpful thinking styles. All or Nothing, Time Travel, and … [Read more...] about Was It My Depression or Did I Really Do That?

Why Can’t I Just Make It Easy And Stop Facing My Depression?

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Facing my depression, and saying it's name out loud, has been work. Sometimes the work has been exhausting. It has only been easy on rare occasions. Most of the time some effort is required on my part to call out depression’s antics and to work through an alternative that doesn’t involve unhelpful thinking. Yet in the past, time … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Just Make It Easy And Stop Facing My Depression?

With Or Without Depression, It’s Never Always Rainbows and Unicorns

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I cannot believe depression had me thinking this. Having just gone through a period of four weeks with increasing signs of a relapse, I am relieved that it is over. Well, over for the moment. Not over as in I will never have to go through that again. Yet each time this happens, I want to think it will never happen again. Coming out of the abyss, I see a new world, full of … [Read more...] about With Or Without Depression, It’s Never Always Rainbows and Unicorns

I Pulled Out My Early Warning Action Plan this morning

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I wrote it almost three years ago and hoped I’d never need it. However, I am darn glad I did. Creating it was a big part of one specific weekly session I attended at On Our Own. There was a workbook each of us was given during the first meeting of the group. The leader went through a section of the workbook during each session. The class size was as … [Read more...] about I Pulled Out My Early Warning Action Plan this morning