My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)

Depression Is Not My Boss (Day 1 revisited)

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Thirty-three months ago, I returned home after spending four days in 5 East. I was a mess, pure and simple. My diagnosis was Major Depressive Disorder, with suicidal ideation. Heck, just the name sounded like a gigantic problem. My depression left me with no ambition except to make it to the end of the day. My goal then was to make it until dark. Then I could reward myself … [Read more...] about Depression Is Not My Boss (Day 1 revisited)

With Depression, I Can Do What I Want, Can’t I?

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Having control over my attitude towards events is all I can do. But that one thing is extremely powerful. It sent men to the moon after the Soviet Union put Sputnik into space. The US program was still launching high-altitude weather balloons. After Sputnik, the attitude of the country was “we have to do something.†And Kennedy making that … [Read more...] about With Depression, I Can Do What I Want, Can’t I?

What Should I Do with All I Have Learned About Depression?

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I must tell you I am very unsettled about this. On the one hand, I have collected and am using a wealth of knowledge about depression. My personal experience includes high-functioning depression, concealed depression, and Major Depressive Disorder. Recently, it was pointed out by my psychiatrist that Anxiety has been present. My life with depression spans 50 years., and … [Read more...] about What Should I Do with All I Have Learned About Depression?

My Batteries Were Recharged From The Family Weekend

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I’m still in the afterglow of my weekend. It was such a fun time having the family together. The rental house my brother found was perfect for the eleven of us. And the amenities kept us all busy, comfortable, and fed. We had plenty of time to visit, catch up and decompress. And I got to reconnect with my grandson in person. This was the highlight of … [Read more...] about My Batteries Were Recharged From The Family Weekend

OK, I’m Ready To Get Started!

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The first email I can find about the project was from the middle of March. (Please read to the end. Sometimes I need to warm up to the depression part) That was 5 months ago. Then, it seemed like only a matter of weeks and the garage construction would be underway. With three estimates in hand and conversations with all three contractors, we had made our choice. March … [Read more...] about OK, I’m Ready To Get Started!