Why am I stuck in this loop of sameness? As I begin writing, I realize this is not the first time I have written about this. My mind has been stuck in a painful, unproductive loop before. And how to jump-start a new, more productive loop is where I am now. READ: Will everyday be the same? Last night, after getting home from work, I had a small meal. By 11 PM, I … [Read more...] about Same Stuff, Just A Different Day
concealed depression
I Do Not Give A Hoot Today
But I really want to care. Somehow, I need to jump-start my recovery again. All I seem to do is to be going sideways. I am not allowing myself to be honest about what is going on inside me. This puts me back to being “evergreen,†not letting my depression show. I do this at a great cost to myself. So, I am beginning to see how much … [Read more...] about I Do Not Give A Hoot Today
I Am Tired Of Being Tired – Part II
Today has been much like most recent days. Certain topics are not on my radar. I am clunking around in a daze, hoping that the answer to why I am feeling blah will pull me aside and reveal itself to me. Why is life so empty? Why can’t I get it together? Where is the piece I am missing and how do I get it? I hit every single stoplight on my … [Read more...] about I Am Tired Of Being Tired – Part II
Pandemic Closings Aside, My Depression Recovery is Still Open For Business
I am having trouble managing my thoughts and feelings with so many of my resources closed. I'm blaming my lack of motivation on not having face to face meetings. And my recovery feels stalled. In SMART Recovery, I have learned that at the heart of recovery lies their 4-Point Program. My journey has taken me from point one to point three. The four-points are: Building … [Read more...] about Pandemic Closings Aside, My Depression Recovery is Still Open For Business
What Are We Searching For in This Pandemic?
Mental health resources, suicide hotlines? If you need help now, call a 24-hour crisis center at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) for free, private help or dial 911. These are unnerving times. I know that the past few months have transformed my thinking about what is normal. Things I take for granted are now not available. … [Read more...] about What Are We Searching For in This Pandemic?
