Being in control is important to me. I think most people seek this in some fashion. Even the most depressed and anxious people have their limits. And I know there are lines I will not cross. Sometimes I learn where these lines are when I explode. Tamping down my responses, I am a powder keg ready to explode. I pack more and more emotions into this vessel, in my attempts … [Read more...] about A Decision To Control My Attitude With 101 Coping Statements For Depression And Anxiety
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I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot
I don’t get it, why am I feeling so average, so run-of-the-mill? From a big picture perspective, things are going great. The job is exciting as I am getting to do a lot of teaching. I’m planning again, not just hoping to make it through the day. My daily to-do list is getting longer, which is something I thrive on. And even as Covid ramps up yet again, I am going to … [Read more...] about I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot
What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”
I’m stuck in the doldrums again. Maybe it’s the fact that it is August and things are just hot. People are in vacation mode after missing last year due to the Pandemic. Everyone is getting cabin fever and is doing things to escape the house. In June, we got out of town and visited family for the first time in more than a year. And we have trips to visit relatives scheduled … [Read more...] about What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”
Am I Expecting Too Much Or Not Enough Out Of My Life?
I do have a choice about this. I can continue to feel sorry for myself and blame my lack of happiness on depression, other’s actions, or the pandemic. There are lots of potential opportunities to make myself the victim at the hands of any of these. And depression, why it can have a role in how I feel even when I don’t have a clue it is having a role in how I feel. So, … [Read more...] about Am I Expecting Too Much Or Not Enough Out Of My Life?
My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?
When asked how I am doing, I can once again say “I’m doing good.” I know this because I am making plans again. When I was circling the drain, I could not envision a future. Heck, I was having trouble seeing the edge of the drain. And feeling up against the wall made it almost impossible to see or feel anything. Making it through the day was often the high point. When I am … [Read more...] about My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?