It feels like I know what the honest answer is. Yet I cannot bring myself to say the words. Saying it should be easy, as it is something about my future. So far, all I have is a list of things I don’t want. For one thing, I know that I don’t want to be taken advantage of. All of my life, I have said yes to others’ needs, often at the expense of myself. I am finally, after … [Read more...] about Is the Question What Comes Next?
Depression
Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
What does it mean to be “perfectly” depressed? The phrase itself feels like a contradiction. Depression, after all, is often portrayed as something visible—tears, disheveled hair, darkened rooms, canceled plans. But what if it could be hidden in plain sight? Behind a polished exterior, behind excellence and achievement, behind the kind of life that others envy? This is the … [Read more...] about Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
Why My Life Is Going Sideways
Photo by Alex Gray on Unsplash It’s a strange feeling—when life isn’t falling apart, exactly, but it also isn’t moving forward. Sideways is the best word I can think of for it. I’m not plummeting into crisis, but I’m not climbing toward anything either. It’s like being stuck on a moving sidewalk that keeps looping in place—motion without direction. I look around and … [Read more...] about Why My Life Is Going Sideways
The Time When I Was Jack Strawcastle, Master Chimney Sweep
I've been working on my book recently about my life with depression. This is a sample from one of the early chapters. I planned to open a woodstove store and not become a chimney sweep. The year was 1976 and renewable resources were becoming the newest fad. Heating with wood was in, and I wanted to be a part of that. My plan was to open a wood stove store and sell stoves … [Read more...] about The Time When I Was Jack Strawcastle, Master Chimney Sweep
Why Does JetBlue Keeps Pushing Back Our Return Flight?
First, we were to get to Dulles around 8:00 PM. This would put us home around 10 or 10:30 PM. Not so bad. Now the Jet Blue flight doesn’t leave the gate until 8:30 PM. We get in after 10 PM. By the time I collect my wife’s luggage and we drive home, it will be after midnight. I suppose it could be worse. With the unpredictable weather patterns currently, there could be … [Read more...] about Why Does JetBlue Keeps Pushing Back Our Return Flight?
