It’s me again. I’ve been off for a few weeks, and I need to write again. I wish I didn't feel like doo-doo. I’m certain that having a severe cold is not making me feel any better. It came on about 72 hours ago. I spent Saturday traveling from the bed to the couch, and then back to the bed. There are a bunch of things on my to-do list for today. Getting my laundry done … [Read more...] about My 70th birthday is coming, and the hardest question isn’t about cake — it’s learning how to choose what I really want for myself.
Facts and myths about mental illness
The Path Back to Joy Starts with One Small Moment
Joy is supposed to feel simple, right? But lately, joy hasn’t felt simple. Or easy. Or even something I expect to feel.. If you’ve read My Concealed Depression before, you know I’ve talked about this—how joy, for me, sometimes slips quietly out of reach. Not with drama. Not with a breakdown. Just… gone. Like the volume’s been turned down on life, and I forgot how to turn … [Read more...] about The Path Back to Joy Starts with One Small Moment
When the Weekly Anchor’s Gone: Navigating a Therapist-Free Week
This will be the first Wednesday in a year that I have not met with my therapist. Regardless of the work, I am always looking forward to Wednesdays. My new therapist has really made me work, and I love it. She has gotten me to open up and consider things that I never imagined possible. She has made a connection that I just hadn’t felt before. During Covid, my … [Read more...] about When the Weekly Anchor’s Gone: Navigating a Therapist-Free Week
My Life Is Going Sideways, Part Two
 I don’t expect the answer to arrive all at once. I’m learning that understanding often comes in slowly, like light leaking through the blinds at sunrise. Subtle, almost imperceptible at first, until suddenly everything is illuminated, and you can see what’s been there all along. That’s what … [Read more...] about My Life Is Going Sideways, Part Two
Is the Question What Comes Next?
It feels like I know what the honest answer is. Yet I cannot bring myself to say the words. Saying it should be easy, as it is something about my future. So far, all I have is a list of things I don’t want. For one thing, I know that I don’t want to be taken advantage of. All of my life, I have said yes to others’ needs, often at the expense of myself. I am finally, after … [Read more...] about Is the Question What Comes Next?
