Photo by Content Pixie on Unsplash The whole idea of being outside for a self-care day was exciting. And then to get to work on outdoor projects, was for me, the best self-care imaginable. As the day unfolded, I expected that I would think going outside and working on things that needed doing would create a conflict for me. After all, I had indoor projects that needed … [Read more...] about I Took a Self-Care Day and I Don’t Feel Guilty
Photo by Rehina Sultanova on Unsplash I have only been using the CPAP machine for two days, but already the morning fog is lifting. It’s possible that CPAP may have helped me a few years ago. But then, the issue ended up being my medication. Once I switched from Prozac to Wellbutrin, I was able to get out of bed and meet the day. I am still so thankful for my new … [Read more...] about My Depression Has Me Catastrophizing Instead of Fixing My Sleep Problem
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash I tried to shift the problem to the new medication that my general practitioner has started me on. This seemed logical as the getting-out-of-bed problem began shortly after I began taking generic Flomax. The reason I am taking that would require an entire blog post of its own. But here I am, and I am trying to understand why I cannot get … [Read more...] about Why Am I Having Trouble Getting Out of Bed Again?
The afterglow of having family at our home has faded, along with the strength of my Wellbutrin. It was me that brought up reducing my daily dosage when I last met with my psychiatrist. I cited how warm and lighter the winter had been so far and that I had not needed to get out my daylight box. Plus, having gone to Africa, the winter had been broken into pre and post-trek to … [Read more...] about Was Reducing My Wellbutrin a Good Idea? – Part 2
Depression has been making me feel unimportant and not worth loving for decades. It has done its best to keep me from seeing my own personal worth. With unhelpful thinking, my depression has shown me how much I have screwed up. And I get to relive all these instances where I was less than perfect. So, if I didn’t catch how worthless I was the first time, depression will … [Read more...] about How Is Depression Pulling My Leg So I Won’t Think I Really Am Somebody?