I’m still alive and able to make choices about my life! Approaching my 200th blog post, I went back and read some of my earlier posts. Boy, I was really a mess. In some ways I still am. Here’s part of what I wrote on my 100th blog post: That first morning, I was told by professionals in the medical community that there was … [Read more...] about Surviving Depression and Thriving as I Write My 200th Blog Post
What depression has cost me
Guess what happened when I changed my attitude?
The past week or so has been a series of crappy, frustrating events. Or that is how I took them. My positive attitude checked out and left my “woe is me†attitude to do all the work. This is never good. I gave away my control of situations and circumstances and allowed them to batter me senseless. The process was out of control and I … [Read more...] about Guess what happened when I changed my attitude?
Today I wish I were sad
That would be a step up from where I am right now. The harder I work on my recovery, the further behind I feel. Now part of this may be the time of year. I know about S.A.D. and what happens when you do not get enough sunlight. This could certainly be a factor in how I feel. But why is it, particularly when I am taking the SMART Training classes and learning so many … [Read more...] about Today I wish I were sad
I didn’t think I would be digging an animal grave today
This isn’t the first animal I have buried. But it is the first since my acknowledgement of depression. This new perspective on life makes the process very personal. I feel so bad for my family. And having lived with the cat for several years, the sadness at our loss is overwhelming. Kidney failure is a messy business, even for a cat. To be fine … [Read more...] about I didn’t think I would be digging an animal grave today
Doing the Drugs; Part II
Today my Psychiatrist upped my Prozac to 40mg daily. This is double the 20 mg I have been taking since the end of April. Thinking about how this came to be, I am sad, mad and glad that it happened. Taking medication, along with therapy seems like a straight-forward process. You see a doctor, get a pill, your cured! Reality is nothing like that. I am sad because took a … [Read more...] about Doing the Drugs; Part II
